It is treacherous to envision a better future, when the past remains unrectified.

Gold lace over ancient striped tee.  Proper cranberry pencil skirt a fine companion for colorful beaded bib necklace.  Gold rose earrings.  An ensemble typical of days devoid of any particular inspiration – just throwing on somethings with color and shine can passably get one through.

Tomorrow is the 10 year anniversary of my mother’s death. It was not peaceful. Neglected by a system devoid of mercy, with the vulnerable as prey.  Her family instructed not to speak of it.

Any plan ever since has been contingent on coming to terms with the unspeakable.  I observe the continuing wound with dismay.

Casting forward I’m still

cast back

awaiting ages for aching

to subside, subdue, renew

until transfigured, my hollowed

heart befits no becoming

unrest arrests

what remains of before

only after becomes

unhealed staticity

lying in state

with your beautiful face

in repose unreached by each

passing year

breath crushed in fear

of steel hardening

my joys unseen but

last and only by you


5 Comments Add yours

  1. ELLE says:

    Thank you for sharing your story, I know it can be a hard one to tell. And thank you for your support in my scholarship vote. ❤

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  2. kenzie says:

    Read about the Spencer protests in Michigan. Maybe. You were on the sidelines. Or. At least bested the other guy.

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    1. I did not attend the protest outside of the Livestock Pavilion (har)… instead, I went to a “diversity celebration” coordinated by various civic entities, held at a church. There were more than 1000 people in attendance, which I find telling. I’m sure I’m not the only one who felt too uncertain of the safety level elsewhere. It’s an unfortunate situation on many levels, needless to say.
      I did collect a goodly number of signatures on the petition to ban fracking in Michigan – a definite positive !

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  3. pendantry says:

    Hi 🙂

    I hope you don’t mind me reaching out in a comment — I couldn’t find a way to contact you privately (you can always delete this comment…)

    I noticed that your Gravatar doesn’t link to your blog. This makes it more difficult for others to find you. Please take a look at my blog post linked below, which explains the easy steps you can take to fix this 🙂

    Happy blogging!


    1. Thank you, I will try to put it arights!
      Also, great name choice 🙂

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